let's talk about grief..
Life comes with lots of little surprises and sometimes they come wrapped in painful packages. Many of us where not tought how to be in the discomfort of emotional pain and as a result we do all we can to avoid it. Let's take a look at some of the reasons avoidance isn't such a good idea...
In Traditional Chinese Medicine, the body, mind and spirit are treated as one, with each aspect influencing the other. Emotional distress consequently effects the physical body and physical injury can induce emotional instability.
We have all experienced grief at some point in our lives. Whether it is the loss of a loved one, a pet, or a failed relationship, experiencing grief is part of being human. Emotions are natural and when expressed freely, will not cause lasting damage. It is when we internalize emotions, or get stuck in a repetitive pattern that we have the potential to create an imbalance.
According to Chinese Medicine the Lungs control respiration, dominate our Qi and are connected to the emotion of grief. Our lungs take in fresh oxygen and energy from the external environment and through exhale release waste and build up from the body. Grief is said to “consume the Qi.” When we experience prolonged, intense grief or sadness, we may experience physical symptoms.
Physical symptoms of disharmony in the Lungs would include shortness of breath, asthma, allergies, sweating, fatigue, coughing, frequent colds/flu and dry skin. Grieving is a necessary process. We must allow ourselves to go through all the stages of grieving before we can return to a state of joyfulness. This process is personal and multi-layered.
It is important to remember to take time out and breath deeply while grieving. Energy healing can be utilized as one unique tool in the grieving process by stimulating energy maridians and pressure points that strengthen the Lung (Metal meridian) and calm the mind. It can help ease the path to renewed joy by offering not only a place for your body to heal but a quiet time of reflection.
Your lungs and heart sustain your life. When you are experiencing grief, you may be closed off to sharing love, your heart and lungs begin to deteriorate. Again, Deep grief affects your lungs and heart. If you experienced loss, betrayal, or rejection, healing increases as we express love. You can intellectually know that someone loves you. You can experience demonstrations of that love. But, you cannot FEEL their love. The only way to actually FEEL love is to express it yourself. When you are in a state of love, your heart chakra and whole chest area expands. Your body's vibration raises. You feel happy, elevated, alive. You feel connected to something larger than yourself. Loving, therefore, is really a gift to yourself--not to the object of your affections. Sharing love promotes healing.
You DO NOT have to have personal love in order to feel love. You can feel unconditional love for everyone in your life, for humanity, for your pets, for the awe-inspiring beauty of our planet, for yourself. You can take action to seek closeness with others, instead of waiting for people to come to you. The important thing is that you allow yourself to feel love. It is your natural state
Expressing love attracts love from others. Get a pet and love it. Volunteer to help others. Let yourself be overwhelmed by beauty. Let your love out! It may feel scary at first, I encourage you to push past the discomfort and open your heart again.
During times in my life that I have experienced grief, and it has began to consume my life, I have learned to ask for help from others who are on a Healers path. I find that it is easier to share openly and express myself freely with someone who is familiar with ENERGY and spiritual meanings of what I am suffering with and have the ability to hold sacred space as I heal and shift into balance and harmony.
Heartache and grief do not have to be your final designation. Reach out for assistance and be guided as you Release, release, release and shift into balance and harmony within your mind, body, spirit, soul.
Many blessings to you, and tons of love,
I started working with the energies of AMAZONITE during the summer solstice and I must say that this stone is really a cool stone!
It has a really nice soothing energy that calms the mind and central nervous system and aligns the aura and physical body. It is great for both the heart and throats chakras and encourages loving communication. It is known to soothe emotional trauma, alleviates worry and fear and dispels negative energy and aggravation.
Physically, AMAZONITE dissolves negative energy and blockages within the nervous system. It helps to relieve muscle spasms and is helpful with osteoporosis, tooth decay, calcium deficiency, and calcium deposits.
It is also known to balance left and right hemispheres of the brain bringing in the inner twin flame union and opening up being able to see both sides or a problem with different points of view!
I am sending a couple of these beauties out in the morning and am really looking forward to receiving feedback from their new home!
AMOZONITE is also helpful for buffering the energies that create a disruption pattern from computers and cell phones!!!
Open your mind. Let go of conditioned thoughts and long-held beliefs. Throw your mind open to new possibilities. Imagine that what you thought was true was actually misleading you.
Seek out deeper meanings, ask questions. Things are rarely as they appear on the surface. Be willing to embrace new concepts and alternative opinions.
Ask yourself if the path you are walking is leading to the destination that you desire. Do you feel bound by rules and traditions? Be ready to explore boundaries and examine your belief system.
Listen to your inner voice. Your personal truth lies within you. Avoid being influenced by strong personalities. Examine the motives of others. Do they lead with integrity and strive for what is right, or do they follow the pack by any means necessary to remain included?
When you have challenged and explored, stand firm with your beliefs.
The difficulties you have experienced was all part of your learning ground, it is what forged the golden nuggets through the pressing down and driving in the heat, the fungus and irritants that form the pearls of great price that once the lessons are understood becomes your greatest tools.. own your ELIXIR.. poison turned into your life giving substance that you then gift others..
Take yourself to a quiet place and stand with your feet firmly on the ground. Bare feet on grass, soil or sand is best. Feel the connection to mother earth rise up through your body. Absorb her energy. Embrace her abundance.
Give thanks for the many gifts in your life. Food, shelter, warmth, health and the love of friends and family. You are safe, nurtured and provided with everything you need.
Draw energy up through your body. Wellness, vitality, cleansing and healing are all flowing through you.
Appreciate your surroundings, give thanks for your blessings and feel secure in your environment.
This morning I am giving my son a ride to work and on the way we stopped at a gas station. Outside of the store a woman probably in her 60's is searching the waist basket for food. Her back is hunched down with the weight she has been carrying. my heart cries out for the weight to be released and for peace to fill her instead and for her needs to be met at a higher level.
I ask myself if there is anything that I am carrying around that isn't serving me anymore, if there is anything that is sealing out my peace or if there is anything that I continue to dig into through the days past that are creating toxic feelings, thoughts and emotions, the things that would appear to be garbage? I don't have to know what I only have to be willing to release, release, release and open a willingness to be raised higher within my state of being and open myself up to receive assistance.
As I choose to locate the aspects of me that are hidden within that show up in my out-pictured world and then heal and release that next. By doing so I not only lift the weight off myself but lift and heal the whole..
I pray for her, my son, myself and anyone else who might be carrying around stuff that is heavy, for peace to prevail and for the days of the past to be left behind with a newness and revival in every moment with wonderment, ease and grace.
Pain in your neck or back is your spine's way of letting you know that something is wrong.
Think of pain as a 'warning system' to your brain, a signal that a part of your body requires attention.
Sometimes the signal is intense to let your body know that it must change something urgently.
In most cases however, the pain starts as a dull ache, or nagging feeling which over time becomes more insistent and intrusive. Your brain is receiving the message but it has put it on the back burner running it through the processors that control the release of stress hormones and emotions.
Its as if your body is saying:
"I'm not in immediate danger ... but you might want to take a look at this when you have a minute!"
It's an invitation to take a look at the way you feel and what you might be stuffing or ignoring, areas that you need support but are not sure how to ask for it or sometimes might not know who can or would help...
Some of you may have heard my testimony of being healed from a broken back and my journey into recognizing what created it. I can honestly say that during the period of time prior to it breaking I was experiencing tremendous stress and feeling extremely alone, I didn't know who to ask for help and I needed it badly. After it went out on me and I was placed into a position where I had no choice but to ask for help I began to heal!!! The irony right?
i live a full life with perfect back health. The revelation that came through my own healing has been powerful at assisting others to arrive at perfect health too.. healing is here for everyone, it's simply about letting the message be delivered and accepting a shift..
As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good in order to bring about this present result, to preserve many people alive.
When you've said all there is to say, and done everything that you could do, and you still fail to achieve what you want, you need to let go.
Telling someone "oh, now that is being real spiritual." Or "you call yourself spiritual and you act like that?" Or if we are spiritual, we have to ______x y z." Has a strong guilt pattern upon it that plays hard upon the human shame imprint that has dominated humanity for eons and is rooted in keeping the spirit of oppression alive with the false belief that you have to somehow act a certain way to be connected to Source/God, or loved, cherished, adored and supported.
When I was a child and in the 8th grade, I was told that I wasn't worthy of being in the presence of god and was given a book that gave a multitude of actions that I would have to take to maybe one day get there and given strong directives that I was not allowed to pray or speak in church or church activities or hold any kind of a youth leadership position. I was placed on church probation and wasn't allowed to take the sacrament or go through the Mormon temple with my family who was having a ceremony to be sealed together for time and all eternity. I somewhat believed what the Bishop told me and it created some really ugly emotional imprints within the way I thought about myself and god. Truthfully it was the beginning of forming shame imprints and a hidden Dis-like for myself and I wasn't so sure that I liked god. If he didn't like me I didn't like him and I wanted nothing to do with him or the church.
The spirit of rebellion took over my life and I began running away, drinking and clinging to boys. I was in and out of foster homes and attempted suicide a few times.
At age 16 I was pregnant, married and finally out in my own. Because of the deep shaded thoughts I had about myself I put a lot of responsibility upon the people in my life for my emotional wellbeing and they where no more capable of carrying my weight then I was of carrying there's. By 18 I had 2 kids and was divorced.
At 19 I entered into a union with a psychopath who beat on me and my children and at age 21 I had had enough and that is where I drew my line in the sand and finally said NO MORe packed up my 4 children and ran to escape his tournament, this was the ending to being beat on and abused and I have not experienced it sense.
During this period of my life I got a job at a youth crisis center working the midnight to eight shift where my duties where to do bed checks every 15 minutes and to prepare meals for the next day and to do light cleaning. At this youth center I recognized myself in every face of the residence. Luckily the staff was incredible and they assisted me in working my way out of some of my pain imprints and through a little bit of inner healing.
Over the next several years I studied psychology and began a career path in the social service field where I worked with people in many different capacities. Child abuse prevention, parent out reach, homeless, food programs, domestic violence advocacy and after school and summer programs. I sat on many boards and was pretty darn good at seeing a need and creating a solution in ways of serving people. I was extremely blessed by having friends and colleagues that where PHD and master level degrees that saw my potential and allowed me to work underneath their licenses.
I had some really amazing experiences but at times some of my un-healed imprints came out in behaviors of men hopping, drinking, anorexia and other not as noticeable self destructing behavior as a means to escape my inner world and to set free the bottled up wild women that resided inside of the good girl facade laced with I am nice and I love people somewhat Unaware that I hurt deeply inside.
The inner making of my inner world amplified the ability to easily spot other people's pain and gifted the ability to advocate for others even though I wasn't so good at advocating for myself most of the time.
In 2002 the trajectory of my life took a quick spiral downward after a suicide with someone I was deeply tied to.. it led me to what I call my ROCK bottom and decent into hell. it was so painful and frightening that it swirled me into the bottom of a black abyss. I was locked in my own self destruction and was forced to lay alone in a cold jail cell, naked unable to access supplies, a phone, friends, car, alcohol, family, just me by myself emotionally battled, bruised with a deep deep desire to die.
On the final day of my decent into hell, and in excruciating emotional pain, I threw myself on the floor and screamed out HELP, HELP ME, I can Not DO this.. suddenly the room illuminated, a bright light appeared it was me and it was bigger then me and it was all things and everything, it was loving and intense, I had visions of my life, times I had felt alone and times I had hurt and happy times and times with my children, family, friends. I had visions of myself in the room I was locked in and visions of the future. I had a deep knowing that I had never been alone and I would never be alone and that I could make it through ANYTHING. I knew that God was love and that all that was true was this love.
For the next 3 and a half years I was on a sabbatical of sorts began to seek understanding of what had occurred as I searched and studied different religions and ancient texts. I found what felt true in each one but none that resonated with me completely.
I worked hospice during that time and sat with women who where close to transitioning into their afterlife. I listened to stories about their lives, dreams fulfilled and dreams abandoned. Relationship joys and relationship pain. I witnessed hearts softening and hearts hardening. I witnessed ancestors visiting and angels appearing as they crossed. It was beautiful and deeply spiritual and sometimes very sad. Especially when I was with someone who had dreams that never came into fruition and a heart and mind that never arrived into a peaceful space of being prior to crossing.
I prayed often and wrote about my experiences, my intuition and inner ability to have a knowing about what was occurring around me increased and I quickly learned how to shift my environment through my mind. I learned about spiritual warfare and soul ties and Super natural healing. I prayed a lot and found answers to my prayers in dreams and visions. It was intense for me. I faced a lot of my own demons and healed a ton.
After my sabbatical and back into the swing of every day society i stepped away from the social service field and began working as a server in a restaurant. I continued to search for others that had similar experiences as mine. I seeked communion within different sects. My discernment was at a heightened state because of the amount of time I spent within the quiet place communing with God several months later I met a soul SiStar named Stephanie and came across a local Rap artist named Truthseekah who at the time came into the restaurant where I worked to hang posters for local events. His music spoke to me and further awoke sleeping aspects of my being.. He and his wife have become Dear to me and are very special to my heart and are treasures to all who's open to experiencing their goodness.
Truth has a spiritual gift of bringing people together from all over the world. Through his fb page I met Dan'O from Honduras and within days was baptized in the river and upon coming up out of the water my awareness heightened beyond my own human comprehension to place into words and sense then i have shed and continue to shed many layers of who I am not and continue to seek God and grow. I have been blessed to meet in the physical world amazing people who I now consider Soul Family that encourage me to continue to grow and they are examples of walking out a life as ONE with God and have been blessed to align with all of you here on FB you are all really beautiful souls.
I am not sharing my story as a way to speak ill towards my birth family. I love my family and adore my parents and believe with every part of my being that they love me and the choices they choose for their spiritual walk is perfect for them and that what they offered me and my siblings came from a belief that they truly align with and as a means to provide an afterlife where they would insure being in the presence of each member of my family within optimal conditions for souls growth and advancement. They have loved me through a lot of my earlier bullshit and took up for my kids where I left off. I know that my heart cries out for a close relationship with them as I am sure they cry out in pain for the same. A bond with a parent isn't breakable no matter how strained. I see the goodness within them and I love them dearly and appreciate the gift of my birth into this realm and all the many lessons and beautiful experiences we shared as a family outside of religion. I see them as great people who are talented, loving, funny, down to earth caring and generous and are worthy of goodness and are worth more then all the riches in the world.
I choose to share because it is my story, some of the history, (her-story) that shaped me into the person that I am today and of course back to the beginning of this writing where I spoke on shame imprints and how deeply they can influence someone's life and how easily it is to become trapped within the illusion of being separated from God and one another or falling into being guilted into abiding by some man made rule to be spiritual enough to be accepted into a group or forced to act in a way that bends to someone else's will because we spoke up or out about something that felt damn right ugly or we didn't agree with what was occurring and the accuser throws the "oh, and you call yourself spiritual!" Card.... or "to be truly spiritual you need to do XYZ.. " "you didn't say in the name of Jesus.." "who gave you the authority to do that?" it's a form of control and it's damn right ugly and manipulative and comes from conditioning where people in a desire to be accepted fall prey to its influence ... I am not separate from God and I don't have to work to be good enough to be LOVED.
To date, I have shared some of my experiences on a small level but have kept myself small as a way to not offend anyone but within doing so it has somewhat silenced me and created a bit of an isolation within coming out and taking about my truth's. I know that if I experienced these things others have experienced similar and / or are currently experiencing similar things. If I have felt isolated and have worked and continue to work through shame imprints others are also doing the same. I am all about turning pain into our life giving Elixir and sharing it with the world and this is all part of owning my shadow and sharing my Elixir.
Today, I' am drawing my line in the sand once again and saying NO MOrE, NOT ME, NO NO, I DONT ACCEPT CONDEMNATION, and I am DONE PLAYING IT SMALL TO SUFICE OTHERS.. I am worthy of speaking my truth.. and I am willing to speak it until it becomes good and comfortable.
We are all good enough everyday and no matter what you have done or haven't done you are LOVED AND ADORED..
My story isn't over yet as I still have dreams that are being built. I haven't grown to the highest capacity of growth nor do I know everything in fact the more aware I become the more I recognize the potential for never reaching total awareness within this life. However, I do know without a shadow of doubt that we are not alone that God is Love and that we are All connected, nothing but our own beliefs can keep us separated.. miracles are real and we can all experience greatness.
This is a bit of my story it's far from complete but it's some of my vulnerable side and some of my strengths. I hope it helps you in some way.. maybe to own your shadows, speak your truths and to turn your pain and shame imprints into healed and to own your life giving Elixirs too.. if you are in an abusive relationship you don't have to stay... if you are trapped within guilt or your past you can be free from that too... if you feel separated from God maybe it will give you the courage to seek within to find your inner connection... maybe it won't do anything but push your buttons and if so instead of being mad at me please choose instead to get to the bottom of why. we are all in this together I need you and you need others too.. thank you for embracing me on what ever level you are able. I truly love you all.
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Kristy Lee is a Intuitive Energy Practicionor who is a strong channel. She writes as a way of giving her experiences a voice to bring forth Healing unto the nations. sharing her journey opens space for you to share yours.
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