Open your mind. Let go of conditioned thoughts and long-held beliefs. Throw your mind open to new possibilities. Imagine that what you thought was true was actually misleading you. Seek out deeper meanings, ask questions. Things are rarely as they appear on the surface. Be willing to embrace new concepts and alternative opinions. Ask yourself if the path you are walking is leading to the destination that you desire. Do you feel bound by rules and traditions? Be ready to explore boundaries and examine your belief system. Listen to your inner voice. Your personal truth lies within you. Avoid being influenced by strong personalities. Examine the motives of others. Do they lead with integrity and strive for what is right, or do they follow the pack by any means necessary to remain included? When you have challenged and explored, stand firm with your beliefs. The difficulties you have experienced was all part of your learning ground, it is what forged the golden nuggets through the pressing down and driving in the heat, the fungus and irritants that form the pearls of great price that once the lessons are understood becomes your greatest tools.. own your ELIXIR.. poison turned into your life giving substance that you then gift others..
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Take yourself to a quiet place and stand with your feet firmly on the ground. Bare feet on grass, soil or sand is best. Feel the connection to mother earth rise up through your body. Absorb her energy. Embrace her abundance.
Give thanks for the many gifts in your life. Food, shelter, warmth, health and the love of friends and family. You are safe, nurtured and provided with everything you need. Draw energy up through your body. Wellness, vitality, cleansing and healing are all flowing through you. Appreciate your surroundings, give thanks for your blessings and feel secure in your environment. kristyLee💖StarFire This morning I am giving my son a ride to work and on the way we stopped at a gas station. Outside of the store a woman probably in her 60's is searching the waist basket for food. Her back is hunched down with the weight she has been carrying. my heart cries out for the weight to be released and for peace to fill her instead and for her needs to be met at a higher level.
I ask myself if there is anything that I am carrying around that isn't serving me anymore, if there is anything that is sealing out my peace or if there is anything that I continue to dig into through the days past that are creating toxic feelings, thoughts and emotions, the things that would appear to be garbage? I don't have to know what I only have to be willing to release, release, release and open a willingness to be raised higher within my state of being and open myself up to receive assistance. As I choose to locate the aspects of me that are hidden within that show up in my out-pictured world and then heal and release that next. By doing so I not only lift the weight off myself but lift and heal the whole.. I pray for her, my son, myself and anyone else who might be carrying around stuff that is heavy, for peace to prevail and for the days of the past to be left behind with a newness and revival in every moment with wonderment, ease and grace. KristyLee💖StarFire Pain in your neck or back is your spine's way of letting you know that something is wrong. Think of pain as a 'warning system' to your brain, a signal that a part of your body requires attention. Sometimes the signal is intense to let your body know that it must change something urgently. In most cases however, the pain starts as a dull ache, or nagging feeling which over time becomes more insistent and intrusive. Your brain is receiving the message but it has put it on the back burner running it through the processors that control the release of stress hormones and emotions. Its as if your body is saying: "I'm not in immediate danger ... but you might want to take a look at this when you have a minute!" It's an invitation to take a look at the way you feel and what you might be stuffing or ignoring, areas that you need support but are not sure how to ask for it or sometimes might not know who can or would help... Some of you may have heard my testimony of being healed from a broken back and my journey into recognizing what created it. I can honestly say that during the period of time prior to it breaking I was experiencing tremendous stress and feeling extremely alone, I didn't know who to ask for help and I needed it badly. After it went out on me and I was placed into a position where I had no choice but to ask for help I began to heal!!! The irony right? i live a full life with perfect back health. The revelation that came through my own healing has been powerful at assisting others to arrive at perfect health too.. healing is here for everyone, it's simply about letting the message be delivered and accepting a shift.. As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good in order to bring about this present result, to preserve many people alive. When you've said all there is to say, and done everything that you could do, and you still fail to achieve what you want, you need to let go. Telling someone "oh, now that is being real spiritual." Or "you call yourself spiritual and you act like that?" Or if we are spiritual, we have to ______x y z." Has a strong guilt pattern upon it that plays hard upon the human shame imprint that has dominated humanity for eons and is rooted in keeping the spirit of oppression alive with the false belief that you have to somehow act a certain way to be connected to Source/God, or loved, cherished, adored and supported.
When I was a child and in the 8th grade, I was told that I wasn't worthy of being in the presence of god and was given a book that gave a multitude of actions that I would have to take to maybe one day get there and given strong directives that I was not allowed to pray or speak in church or church activities or hold any kind of a youth leadership position. I was placed on church probation and wasn't allowed to take the sacrament or go through the Mormon temple with my family who was having a ceremony to be sealed together for time and all eternity. I somewhat believed what the Bishop told me and it created some really ugly emotional imprints within the way I thought about myself and god. Truthfully it was the beginning of forming shame imprints and a hidden Dis-like for myself and I wasn't so sure that I liked god. If he didn't like me I didn't like him and I wanted nothing to do with him or the church. The spirit of rebellion took over my life and I began running away, drinking and clinging to boys. I was in and out of foster homes and attempted suicide a few times. At age 16 I was pregnant, married and finally out in my own. Because of the deep shaded thoughts I had about myself I put a lot of responsibility upon the people in my life for my emotional wellbeing and they where no more capable of carrying my weight then I was of carrying there's. By 18 I had 2 kids and was divorced. At 19 I entered into a union with a psychopath who beat on me and my children and at age 21 I had had enough and that is where I drew my line in the sand and finally said NO MORe packed up my 4 children and ran to escape his tournament, this was the ending to being beat on and abused and I have not experienced it sense. During this period of my life I got a job at a youth crisis center working the midnight to eight shift where my duties where to do bed checks every 15 minutes and to prepare meals for the next day and to do light cleaning. At this youth center I recognized myself in every face of the residence. Luckily the staff was incredible and they assisted me in working my way out of some of my pain imprints and through a little bit of inner healing. Over the next several years I studied psychology and began a career path in the social service field where I worked with people in many different capacities. Child abuse prevention, parent out reach, homeless, food programs, domestic violence advocacy and after school and summer programs. I sat on many boards and was pretty darn good at seeing a need and creating a solution in ways of serving people. I was extremely blessed by having friends and colleagues that where PHD and master level degrees that saw my potential and allowed me to work underneath their licenses. I had some really amazing experiences but at times some of my un-healed imprints came out in behaviors of men hopping, drinking, anorexia and other not as noticeable self destructing behavior as a means to escape my inner world and to set free the bottled up wild women that resided inside of the good girl facade laced with I am nice and I love people somewhat Unaware that I hurt deeply inside. The inner making of my inner world amplified the ability to easily spot other people's pain and gifted the ability to advocate for others even though I wasn't so good at advocating for myself most of the time. In 2002 the trajectory of my life took a quick spiral downward after a suicide with someone I was deeply tied to.. it led me to what I call my ROCK bottom and decent into hell. it was so painful and frightening that it swirled me into the bottom of a black abyss. I was locked in my own self destruction and was forced to lay alone in a cold jail cell, naked unable to access supplies, a phone, friends, car, alcohol, family, just me by myself emotionally battled, bruised with a deep deep desire to die. On the final day of my decent into hell, and in excruciating emotional pain, I threw myself on the floor and screamed out HELP, HELP ME, I can Not DO this.. suddenly the room illuminated, a bright light appeared it was me and it was bigger then me and it was all things and everything, it was loving and intense, I had visions of my life, times I had felt alone and times I had hurt and happy times and times with my children, family, friends. I had visions of myself in the room I was locked in and visions of the future. I had a deep knowing that I had never been alone and I would never be alone and that I could make it through ANYTHING. I knew that God was love and that all that was true was this love. For the next 3 and a half years I was on a sabbatical of sorts began to seek understanding of what had occurred as I searched and studied different religions and ancient texts. I found what felt true in each one but none that resonated with me completely. I worked hospice during that time and sat with women who where close to transitioning into their afterlife. I listened to stories about their lives, dreams fulfilled and dreams abandoned. Relationship joys and relationship pain. I witnessed hearts softening and hearts hardening. I witnessed ancestors visiting and angels appearing as they crossed. It was beautiful and deeply spiritual and sometimes very sad. Especially when I was with someone who had dreams that never came into fruition and a heart and mind that never arrived into a peaceful space of being prior to crossing. I prayed often and wrote about my experiences, my intuition and inner ability to have a knowing about what was occurring around me increased and I quickly learned how to shift my environment through my mind. I learned about spiritual warfare and soul ties and Super natural healing. I prayed a lot and found answers to my prayers in dreams and visions. It was intense for me. I faced a lot of my own demons and healed a ton. After my sabbatical and back into the swing of every day society i stepped away from the social service field and began working as a server in a restaurant. I continued to search for others that had similar experiences as mine. I seeked communion within different sects. My discernment was at a heightened state because of the amount of time I spent within the quiet place communing with God several months later I met a soul SiStar named Stephanie and came across a local Rap artist named Truthseekah who at the time came into the restaurant where I worked to hang posters for local events. His music spoke to me and further awoke sleeping aspects of my being.. He and his wife have become Dear to me and are very special to my heart and are treasures to all who's open to experiencing their goodness. Truth has a spiritual gift of bringing people together from all over the world. Through his fb page I met Dan'O from Honduras and within days was baptized in the river and upon coming up out of the water my awareness heightened beyond my own human comprehension to place into words and sense then i have shed and continue to shed many layers of who I am not and continue to seek God and grow. I have been blessed to meet in the physical world amazing people who I now consider Soul Family that encourage me to continue to grow and they are examples of walking out a life as ONE with God and have been blessed to align with all of you here on FB you are all really beautiful souls. I am not sharing my story as a way to speak ill towards my birth family. I love my family and adore my parents and believe with every part of my being that they love me and the choices they choose for their spiritual walk is perfect for them and that what they offered me and my siblings came from a belief that they truly align with and as a means to provide an afterlife where they would insure being in the presence of each member of my family within optimal conditions for souls growth and advancement. They have loved me through a lot of my earlier bullshit and took up for my kids where I left off. I know that my heart cries out for a close relationship with them as I am sure they cry out in pain for the same. A bond with a parent isn't breakable no matter how strained. I see the goodness within them and I love them dearly and appreciate the gift of my birth into this realm and all the many lessons and beautiful experiences we shared as a family outside of religion. I see them as great people who are talented, loving, funny, down to earth caring and generous and are worthy of goodness and are worth more then all the riches in the world. I choose to share because it is my story, some of the history, (her-story) that shaped me into the person that I am today and of course back to the beginning of this writing where I spoke on shame imprints and how deeply they can influence someone's life and how easily it is to become trapped within the illusion of being separated from God and one another or falling into being guilted into abiding by some man made rule to be spiritual enough to be accepted into a group or forced to act in a way that bends to someone else's will because we spoke up or out about something that felt damn right ugly or we didn't agree with what was occurring and the accuser throws the "oh, and you call yourself spiritual!" Card.... or "to be truly spiritual you need to do XYZ.. " "you didn't say in the name of Jesus.." "who gave you the authority to do that?" it's a form of control and it's damn right ugly and manipulative and comes from conditioning where people in a desire to be accepted fall prey to its influence ... I am not separate from God and I don't have to work to be good enough to be LOVED. To date, I have shared some of my experiences on a small level but have kept myself small as a way to not offend anyone but within doing so it has somewhat silenced me and created a bit of an isolation within coming out and taking about my truth's. I know that if I experienced these things others have experienced similar and / or are currently experiencing similar things. If I have felt isolated and have worked and continue to work through shame imprints others are also doing the same. I am all about turning pain into our life giving Elixir and sharing it with the world and this is all part of owning my shadow and sharing my Elixir. Today, I' am drawing my line in the sand once again and saying NO MOrE, NOT ME, NO NO, I DONT ACCEPT CONDEMNATION, and I am DONE PLAYING IT SMALL TO SUFICE OTHERS.. I am worthy of speaking my truth.. and I am willing to speak it until it becomes good and comfortable. We are all good enough everyday and no matter what you have done or haven't done you are LOVED AND ADORED.. My story isn't over yet as I still have dreams that are being built. I haven't grown to the highest capacity of growth nor do I know everything in fact the more aware I become the more I recognize the potential for never reaching total awareness within this life. However, I do know without a shadow of doubt that we are not alone that God is Love and that we are All connected, nothing but our own beliefs can keep us separated.. miracles are real and we can all experience greatness. This is a bit of my story it's far from complete but it's some of my vulnerable side and some of my strengths. I hope it helps you in some way.. maybe to own your shadows, speak your truths and to turn your pain and shame imprints into healed and to own your life giving Elixirs too.. if you are in an abusive relationship you don't have to stay... if you are trapped within guilt or your past you can be free from that too... if you feel separated from God maybe it will give you the courage to seek within to find your inner connection... maybe it won't do anything but push your buttons and if so instead of being mad at me please choose instead to get to the bottom of why. we are all in this together I need you and you need others too.. thank you for embracing me on what ever level you are able. I truly love you all. KristyLee💖StarFire When it comes to being loved and cared for by the people in our lives we often set ourselves up for big disappointments especially when we have expectations around what love and being cared for SHOULD look like and by doing so we close ourselves off from enjoying the experiences that we encounter with the person or people because somehow they didn't express themselves in a way that met our expectations.
I know that this has been true for me in the past especially around relationships with parents, children, friends and family, in fact my judgment of how it should be created stories in my mind that eventually became visible within the relationships and over time the relationships became more and more strained as I became trapped in the illusion of abandoned, not accepted, rejected, not loved and feelings of very alone.. I was able to begin to untangle myself from these patternings when I recognized that everyone has their own way of expressing love and showing that they DO care and more importantly when I began to meet my own emotional needs and choose to turn towards loving and caring for myself I began to cherish the encounters I am gifted and eventually I lost the need to control, judge and attach myself to silly ideals and expectations of how others SHOULD BE, DO or BEHAVE. I am not suggesting that you sign up for being abused or shit upon but instead that you place yourself at the center of your own care package and learn to honor and cherish yourself, set strong boundaries and learn to say NO when you want to and YES because that is truly what you want to say and not so much out of being a sacrificial lamb that sets yourself aside to please someone else as you build resentment and abandon you. I truly believe that everyone does their best to survive life and to share intimacy and closeness at the level that we are capable of. Earth with its polarity hasn't been an easy ride on the loving kindness train.. and for many experiences and family patterns have created a closed off and disconnection to diving into deeper more affectionate encounters. The relationship with yourself is the most valuable relationship you can ever build. Please say yes to being loving and kind to you and in return you will be less needy and others will begin to mirror the way you treat yourself.. remember someone else can not fill your inner void only your inner connection to your Source can do this.. we can lift one another up and breathe hope but the deep stuff only you can fully transcend and As you clear out density, old hurts and pain you lift to higher ground and your relationships lift too. Remember the villains in our lives are every bit as important as the saints.. there is NO such thing as an encounter that SHOULD NOT Have BEEN.. put down all the pre-conceived ideas about how others should be and let the un folding of the journey become your enjoyment.. I truly love you all.. thank you for sharing this game called life with me.. KristyLee💖StarFire How we show up for ourselves in our lives is how we show up for others.. say YES to you and choose to honor yourself.. build a relationship that is strong, supporting, honoring and deeply compassionate.. you are your first friend and your last friend in fact aside from Creator the only friend that is with you 💯 percent of the time ... you are precious... treat yourself that way... 💖 and just remember if you forgot how it's never too late to learn all over again.. 💖💫🔥 saying "YES" to you is the most important "YES" you will ever say... please stop abandoning yourself... make you a priority.. you are WORtHY.. “As a boat on the water is swept away by a strong wind, even one of the senses on which the mind focuses can carry away a man’s intelligence.” the woodpecker medicine is here to assist with banishing evil and restoring crystal clear clarity. It helps you to cut through the confusion and see options that are awaiting your discovery. It provides grounding, opening to financial abundance, clears stuck energies in the throat, heart, and power center chakras. It will stabilize your emotions and bring in a loving and supportive energies.
45.00 US Dollars Times of harsh experiences are here to lead us out of captivity and into the light.Even the people who choose this life path to play the role of the villain are here for the purpose of being our healers.
As paradoxical as this may seem it is the truth. They didn't come in to work on their self and to expel their own darkness but instead came in to trigger the hidden hurts of the people who choose to utilize this life span as a means to heal our soul linage and the linage of the human race. Without the triggers we would not have a way to locate the repressed pain and coping mechanisms and emotional patterns. Big shifts occur out of times of harsh conditions, for example on a global level the experiences of the holocaust brought about a lot of grief and loss and in return people felt their feelings and it led many into unity. The Great Depression brought about a space of fear for survival and people had the opportunity to work through past life or linage healing through the experience of their time and a lot of people came together and began to cultivate resources. If you have been placed into a family of origin that provided a harsh childhood chances are pretty high that you choose to utilize this life time to claim the family shadows and to work through your own inner darkness from the harsh and painful experiences and in turn you clear the whole. We are at a very interesting time, it is a time of a great awakening, the energies of the collective are pushing us into facing our shadows, instead of letting shadow projections scare you into shutting down utilize the triggers as a means for freeing yourself and in return it clears it for humanity. We all have many roles that we play, sometimes we are the villain and sometimes we are the saint, it isn't necessarily fixed. Take each experience and dig deep inside and instead of making it about the people who appear to be hurting you or bringing you happiness utilize the experiences as locating the inner density or your own inner joy and extract the poison or the passion into your Life giving Elixir. This will assist you with the marriage of the inner twin or the yin/yang, balance and harmony. Life is not happening to us but through us and it is always 💯 percent of the time delivering exactly what we are ready to face and meeting our needs. KristyLee💖StarFire If we put our worth in the hands of other humans we will always wind up on a wavering roller coaster ride of high highs and low lows.. ALL determined by lack of response, not receiving the response we might have wished for and tossed to the heights of the heavens when we receive the response we thought we needed.. and then again on the decent into the hellish landscape or the mind when the reaction we hoped for fell through..
I am not saying to exit relationships or to go live in a lonesome cave because we all need one another and connecting is part of our vitality.. what I am saying is more about Finding your inner light and let it help you to dismantle all of who you are not and allow it to guide you to the Infinite you.. take the disempowering record off the wheel and flood your mind with words that build precept upon precept of Glory and Grace.. choose to reside within Ease.. and Grace ... "How can I live within a higher version of experiencing myself and existence without wavering my worth based upon humans response or lack of response and truly experience the Divine in all of my interactions? Show me.." KristyLee💖StarFire 💯 of humans have one or more ways that is used as an escape mechanism, it's just that some forms have been deemed as not acceptable by the collective and if you so happen to experience expressing yourself by utilizing one of the taboo methods you have the job of not only setting the behavior down but then owning the collective shadow within the shame stigma that centers around that particular choice...
You do not have to let it own any part of your identity.. it's not you.. you simply choose to experience something and in so doing it came with cause and effect outcome that might have created a bit of dissidence or chaos or maybe not so much.. maybe you skated.... Realize that you are fluid, life is fluid and within everyday of your life you express yourself in a multitude of different ways.. some you enjoyed and others not so much.. some might have become so robotic that you don't even stop to process what occurred anymore.. If you where to break your day down into segments and journal your thoughts, feelings, emotions, words and actions soon you would recognize your triggers, patterns, and ways of processing your life and over time you might just recognize who the voice in your head belongs to and if you pay particular attention you would see the correlation between cause and effect and would soon stop letting some of the silliness run you.. and would most likely gain enough awareness that you could easily course correct.. when needed... Please choose to Let yourself off the hook.. if you expressed yourself in a way that deems shame, blame, hate, unforgivness, sadness etc, make friends with that you that expressed yourself in that manner .. and please stop owning the identity.. you are not anyone of the horrible things that might be behind a man made judgement or label.. you are far greater than any of that .. you are a perfect creation visiting Earth doing your best to figure out how to be human.. Tons of love, KristyLee💖StarFire |
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